But, put her into the mode of planning a wedding, and everything goes wonderfully. OK, I lie. I had to be the heavy, the one saying....you have to decide....TODAY. About announcements, a dress, colors, food, dates, places, bridesmaids, registering, and on, and on, and on. Poor Brad, he is trying to help from NYC for a wedding that will be in Utah, with a fiancee that lives in OKC. And referee from the sidelines...
At any rate, all this decision making and details, and crying and laughing and yelling (ok, I hate to admit to it, but I am supposed to cleanse my soul...right?)made me think back to this day and this woman.
I realized during my efforts to help Lauren plan this most special day in her young life, I had also frustrated my mother in so many ways. There were so many times during this recent process that I wanted to call her and laugh with her and cry and tell her I was sorry. There were so many times that I regretted that I didn't tell her things because I thought she would be mad, or try to talk me out of...(basically, meeting, dating and marrying Reid!) There are so many things that I now understand as a middle-aged woman, that I would have never known as a young twenty-something. And how much I wished that I could pick up the phone, and call her. But sometimes things come too late. But I know that she was watching over me and Lauren, hoping that we would put aside things and be a team. And you know what....we did. I love you little girl.
